California

Hello.....it has been too long. In fact it has been ridiculously long. My camera has been unable to download pictures for months now and it has made me a bad blogger.
I am living in California now. I get to help raise my niece and it is AMAZING! It is my favorite part of my life right now.

The Almost New Digs....

Today was a great relaxing day. Sarah, David, Siena and I went to my soon to be new house and hung out poolside. My housemate Kyra was out of town and told us to come on over and get a feel for it...ohh we did......
















....a few shots of the house, the views, the pool and the fun!

Re-Do On Life

Hello there. Crazy days that we live in. I am moving. I am leaving my beloved Leadville. I feel positive about this move. I am having a hard time wording my feelings but I am going to try......I have been blessed with so many opportunities and quite frankly spoilings in Leadville. I feel like I am no longer doing good things with my power there....see this is where it starts to sound super heroish....... It is the the one thing that has gone through my head though when considering this move.
I am realistically excited about about this move I suppose. I fear my down spiral which is o.k. I know it is there and I know I will make it through to the other side. It's the lonliness....the darn lonley feelings. I am moving to be with my family. My sister and brother-in-law just had a baby....a life changing....beautiful little girl. I weep just thinking and writing about her. I am so in love. She smiles, I weep, she cooes and I melt. I talk to her pushing the stroller...I swear I could hit a wall and not know it. She is my focus.
I am going to miss my roots, my adult made family that I have created in Colorado. That is scary and big and real to me. I make strong connections with people. My friends are my world. It is such a strange feeling....I am sitting here, in the dark, in my sisters house, while she and David make this great meal and my heart is breaking for a place that I haven't even left yet. On the other hand, I know that this is a good move. I know it is a posivite move and I am happy that I have decided to embark on it. That is my logical side....even emotionally I think it is an amazing step for me...the stagnation that has filled me as of late has left fear brimming over with self doubt and mind chatter. I am excited to kick out my crap and grasp on to my deep spiritual knowing that I have placed aside for a while. ....The universe only brings me good...I am safe!

EXHAUSTED

I don't have much to say...just trying to get back into the habit of writing again. Things are going alright here. I am having difficulties staying motivated to go to work...it turns out that I am VERY sick of restaurants right now and am screaming for a change. I have sent away for some information on a few schools on the front range and am excited to see what they have to offer me. I am looking into becoming a Nutritionist ...with the whole gluten thing it has become a huge passion of mine...add to the list of my passions....
I am also just wanting to be in California right now. I am really excited to get out there and meet my neice. She is beautiful and surrounded by love...can't wait!

Holy Crap

I can't believe it has been since October friggin 08 that I last wrote. Changes changes, always changes. Life is good. I am continuing my learning process about myself and surroundings...spiritually, socially and physically. Trying to stay centered yet let go some....how do you find the balance?
I am living back in my favorite spot in Leadville. I have GREAT views and neighbors. There are 11 dogs on my block...That is one side of the road between 4 houses. It is great. It keeps snobby people away. We all love it. We all help watch each others dogs too....so nice.
I am single and really liking it. Sam and I have remained good friends and really both want to stay in contact with each other. he is moving at the end of the month. I am very excited for his personal adventure to begin. Hopefully he can gain some clarity on what he really loves and what his true passions are in life. It's funny how alive he has become since we broke up. He notices it too. He was so bogged down by his past that he couldn't enjoy his present...he is starting to...YEA!! He is a beautiful man.....enough about him though.......
Having a great summer...walked out on my job that was eating away at my soul and making me cry daily....best move in a while for me. Took my buddy Emily with me..got new jobs at a popular restaurant in town. Making double to triple the cash and no responibility except to show up and waitress!!!! It rocks! Thinking about the possibility of living somewhere else....not that I am moving, but considering the possibility. Everything is open and I am free...I LOVE IT!!!!!

Days Off

Today was my first REAL day off in a long time. No one could call in sick or bored or just for fun or anything. It was blissful. I hung out all day. I sat in the back yard with the dogs and took some great pictures. It was the first day that I have been able to play with my awesome camera my mom got me. Soo nice. Here are some shots ..............

Rooms.....